Wednesday, August 08, 2007
after the celebration we had pizza, guess who was there! -stares at everyone in GHC. hurrr! we also can hor! -fist clenches. anyway! bowling after that, and chris was laughing at me about how i was complaining about the weight of the ball! hahah he's so retarded, can you believe he's sixteen already! to chris: you guy what, muscle man lah! spastic birthday boy. -bounces! anyway, then left for PHS carnival to meet brianna. she didnt pick up my calls for like almost 10 times and i was so worried! ser maine and i were lost in the river of people haha. then helpful winnie helped me to locate brianna and off we went to spend the coupons (:
brianna: fion am i a bad host!
me: no lah, but ser commented on your unfriendliness, hahah.
brianna: me, unfriendly? hurrr ): really ah, sorry!
me: no lah, not exactly, just that you ignored my precious calls. but we have forgiven you (:
and off she went to play the haunted house and as usual i stayed outside, waiting for her! then she walked me out of school, like a friendly host (:
oh and layssie is officially engaged to ME, hahaha (:
i thought i have made my decision, but being dealt a blow by you today, i begin to wonder, whether i should bear this pain by confronting the past, or stick to that initial decision. whichever i make, you play the deciding factor.
it was such a shock.it has been a hundred years since i've seen you face to face, though i saw you when i was driving past yesterday, but i suppose i was unnoticed.circumstances forced me to be unfriendly, because i simply did not know how to react. thinking about it now, i regret having missed the chance. overwhelmed with emotion now, i just need time to talk. but being your cruel self, you leave me with nothing but regret and passion, feelings that are uncontrollable. remorse, that i had left it suffering from malnutrition. given the chance, this wouldnt have happened. sounds cliche, but now i really believe that, people only treasure someone else when he is gone. gone, for good. i've never believed in forever, but forever can mean a lot. forever gone, or forever here? you choose.
It's a beautiful disguise.